Sunday, November 8, 2009

I think I'm ready....

I think I'm just about ready to head back into the blog-o-sphere. As I mentioned a few posts back- it was time to step back, take a look at my life, myself, my marriage, my career, where I've been and where I want to go. I had totally lost grip. I let things that didn't truly matter grip me. I suppose I was worshiping false idols? Wow...what a realization. I was typing the sentence above that reads "let things that don't truly matter grip me" and it just clicked that I think I was worshiping false idols. Interesting. So that's what it feels like. That's what it can do to you. That's what can happen to your life when you let other "things" of the world become your focus.

The internet was consuming my life. Hours upon hours when I got home I would peruse the internet. Not looking up anything specific..just looking. Reading. Concentrating. Concentrating on the lit up screen of my Mac Book instead of concentrating on my marriage. Instead of concentrating on my family, or my friends or my life. I was to busy nosing into the lives of others.

I've taken some time away from the computer, and it's funny how much I don't miss 95% of it. The 5% I do miss is blogging here. I miss getting to post about this or that...complain or praise. Happy or sad, Good or bad...I miss using this as a sort of outlet.

I can still choose which parts of my life that I want to be public...I can still choose what I want people to know. I can type about a situation or keep it private. It's my choice.

But I do love to help others. I love to impact others. I love to see others smile.

I can't help but wonder if my blog is helping someone. What if the things I say or the emotions I convey are exactly what someone else is feeling, or exactly what someone needs to hear. Because I have been on the receiving end of those words and emotions many times, I know how it feels. I know how uplifting it can be. The revelation it can reveal.

So...I'm back. Back to blogging here that is. I will not return to the hours I spent on the computer before, because frankly life has WAY too much to offer. WAY more than "cyberspace". I will read words of other blogs of the people that I have grown to love and appreciate- and I will share my thoughts with others here in hopes that it touches them. That it reaches people that I would never reach if it weren't for this blog.

My writing isn't really eloquent. It isn't fancy. Shoot- it may not even be grammatically correct (did I even spell "grammatically" right???HA!) but my writing is real. It's just...well...it's just ME.



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My sweet husband begins his new job tomorrow. Finally after being unemployed for 8 months and 10 days due to his past companies layoff- he will now be back in the corporate world again. Oh how much I hope he loves his job. I hope it's more than he can even imagine. I hope he loves the people he works with as much as I know they will love him. What an amazing talent they are gaining. Such knowledge, reasoning, intelligence...I could go on.

I am just so happy and proud for him. I hope he has an amazing first day back at work, and good grief- I will be thinking about him all day long :)


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Alright...well I have a little cleaning left to do on this Sunday...and tonight's menu includes some BBQ Beef Brisket that needs to cook for about 3 hours...so I'm off to get a jump start on it all :)

I hope all of my sweet readers, who may still be out there, are doing well...and I hope we will be back to chatting soon :)

14 talker(s):

Lea Liz said...

Glad you're back girl!! I knwo the internet can consume so much of your time if you let it!! I have to step back sometimes too!!

Good luck to your hubs!

Lea Liz said...

Glad you're back girl!! I knwo the internet can consume so much of your time if you let it!! I have to step back sometimes too!!

Good luck to your hubs!

Shannon said...

Glad you're blogging again girl!

We need to do dinner one night, what do yours & Rob's schedules look like?

The Neaves' said...

Welcome back:)

i. me. mine said...

So glad you're back. I've missed your posts!

Lindsey said...

YAYAYA welcome back!!=)

Suzanne said...

I am so excited you're back! I love all your posts. Good luck to that hubby of yours! :)

Jane said...

Welcome back! Taking a step back is always needed in my book, so that's great you were able to do it and learn about you in the process :)

Good luck to your hubby!

Lovin a Farm Boy said...

So glad you're back!

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Bethany said...

I'm glad your back. I took a little internet break myself...I was forced to (due to my crazy life) more than it was a choice I made, but you're right. A break is good sometimes. It's important to focus on the irreplaceable things in your life.

Good for you! :)

Cally D said...

i've missed catching up. missed our friendship which unfortunately relied so much on the stupid internet. you've come leaps and bounds. love ya.

The Drama Mama said...

I stopped by to leave you a comment about something totally unrelated and I was touched by your post. I have SO been there, girl! Good for you for realizing it and making changes...it is so easy to get sucked into spending way too much time on the computer when you could be doing other things that are way more productive.

Anyhoo, I really stopped by to make sure you saw THIS - YAY!!! Email me when you can!! HUGS!!

Donna said...

Awesome, amazing words!!! I can so relate to the whole being consummed with the "internet" thing. I too am feeling so much better not being a part of it SO much anymore. Ahhhhhhhhh and it feels so good :) xo