I think I'm just about ready to head back into the blog-o-sphere. As I mentioned a few posts back- it was time to step back, take a look at my life, myself, my marriage, my career, where I've been and where I want to go. I had totally lost grip. I let things that didn't truly matter grip me. I suppose I was worshiping false idols? Wow...what a realization. I was typing the sentence above that reads "let things that don't truly matter grip me" and it just clicked that I think I was worshiping false idols. Interesting. So that's what it feels like. That's what it can do to you. That's what can happen to your life when you let other "things" of the world become your focus.
The internet was consuming my life. Hours upon hours when I got home I would peruse the internet. Not looking up anything specific..just looking. Reading. Concentrating. Concentrating on the lit up screen of my Mac Book instead of concentrating on my marriage. Instead of concentrating on my family, or my friends or my life. I was to busy nosing into the lives of others.
I've taken some time away from the computer, and it's funny how much I don't miss 95% of it. The 5% I do miss is blogging here. I miss getting to post about this or that...complain or praise. Happy or sad, Good or bad...I miss using this as a sort of outlet.
I can still choose which parts of my life that I want to be public...I can still choose what I want people to know. I can type about a situation or keep it private. It's my choice.
But I do love to help others. I love to impact others. I love to see others smile.
I can't help but wonder if my blog is helping someone. What if the things I say or the emotions I convey are exactly what someone else is feeling, or exactly what someone needs to hear. Because I have been on the receiving end of those words and emotions many times, I know how it feels. I know how uplifting it can be. The revelation it can reveal.
So...I'm back. Back to blogging here that is. I will not return to the hours I spent on the computer before, because frankly life has WAY too much to offer. WAY more than "cyberspace". I will read words of other blogs of the people that I have grown to love and appreciate- and I will share my thoughts with others here in hopes that it touches them. That it reaches people that I would never reach if it weren't for this blog.
My writing isn't really eloquent. It isn't fancy. Shoot- it may not even be grammatically correct (did I even spell "grammatically" right???HA!) but my writing is real. It's just...well...it's just ME.
I am just so happy and proud for him. I hope he has an amazing first day back at work, and good grief- I will be thinking about him all day long :)
Alright...well I have a little cleaning left to do on this Sunday...and tonight's menu includes some BBQ Beef Brisket that needs to cook for about 3 hours...so I'm off to get a jump start on it all :)
I hope all of my sweet readers, who may still be out there, are doing well...and I hope we will be back to chatting soon :)