Pencils, Books, Professors....OH MY!!!!!! (and another shoutout)

So big news here. I haven't posted this on my blog yet..well I have attempted to many times, and have multiple "drafts" saved up, but I just decided to skip trying to make some "life changing, perfect diction, miracle" post, and just post my darn news.

I'm going back to school. Yup. I have been blessed with the opportunity to finish up my nursing degree and you can bet your pretty panties that I am going to JUMP ON THIS. After some discussion and evaluating, my husband and I decided it was time. It's now or never, and I have chosen to make now, my forever.

I have always- ALWAYS wanted to be a nurse. For this reason or for that reason I never was able to complete the degree, until now. I haven't been this excited in a VERY long time. Well, our wedding day, October 11th brought the most excitement in my life, but this is in my top 4 or 5 =) Sometimes you just need to stop trying to control you every move in life. You need to realize God is the steering wheel, and not the spare tire. After 2 layoffs in 4 months, it was time for me to stop and take a gooood, long look at the "why". Why is this happening?? Is there something He is trying to tell me. To tell us??? So Rob and I, together, made the decision for me to go back to school.

I'm watching a little 4 month old during the day until about 4:00, and then I will be in class from 5:30-9:00 PM. If all goes smoothly, I could/should be in nursing school in the Fall. I am so very excited, I wish I could convey!

I would ask for a small prayer request. If you could just pray for me. That I will embrace this opportunity. Pray for Rob as he has to sacrifice many things as well, to make this opportunity possible for me. Pray for us as we try and adjust to a new lifestyle and that we will be patient with each other, and know that this is a wonderful blessing for our future!

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Thank You, Honey

Just wanted to post a quick thank you to my sweetie, for helping me today with a work assignment. Rob stays so incredibly busy during the day, and I took a chance and emailed something to him, for him to look over- and he was able to help me make a change that needed to be made...and I thought it was so sweet.

It's in the little things....

I love you so much, Rob.

Frozen in Time

Today I caught myself sitting on the couch staring at the wall, deep within my thoughts. I somehow pictured myself...my life...my husband. And if/when Rob reads this he will probably take a big gulp and head for a glass of wine...BUT...I was thinking about our first child (YEARS down the road). I was thinking about how amazing it will be to go through the labor and delivery process with Rob by my side. That man, that handsome man will not only be MINE, my husband, but at that point- the father of our unborn child. I got chills, I even thought about Rob holding our child for the first time, and the look I imagine coming across his chiseled face. I smiled the most peaceful, encouraging smile. I cannot wait for that time!

There is a long way down the road before we are to that point in our lives, but I look forward to it.

I just wanted to document this time and this day for the future. Its just a fun future to look forward to.

Daisies and Rainbows..and the inbetween..

For the most part, this blog has been a way for me to share and document the events of our lives. And why I felt that only meant the good and "chocolate covered" events- I am not sure. It's not always a life of daisies and rainbows. There is rain and there are thorns.

I (and in return WE) have been going through some tough times lately. I was recently laid off of my job (yes..2 months before the wedding) and I have just felt a tremendous amount of guilt for the pressure that it has put on myself, but more importantly my precious soon-to-be hubby. He has worked so very hard in this life to get where he is, and I just don't understand why sometimes he chose me. I mess up so much and it brings us down. I am working on these things so very very hard. But sometimes I just wonder what in the world is appealing about me, for Rob to stick around.

A very close friend (and a member of the wedding party) told me the other day.."Amy, how can you be sure the boat will stand tough waters if you have only been in a pond". And he's right. I know that Rob and I are both in this for the long haul. He loves me and I love him. We have found each other, and desire no one but the other. What an incredible feeling. But I am still so very hard on myself...and struggle daily wondering "why he loves me". It seems like I am always screwing something up.

Anyway...I have been job searching like crazy...and hoping that the lights at the end of these tunnels are not trains. I had an interview last Friday, and really enjoyed the company...so we shall see what happens from there! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers if you don't mind...as this is a very very trying time for us.

In the land of wedding planning--this darn wedding is coming WAY faster than I would prefer right now!!! Why is it when you are 286 days away from the wedding (yes..I have a countdown going on in the kitchen) it seems like I can't update the "new day" quick enough. And now...we are approximately 60 days/2 months/8 weeks from this wedding and I am screaming "SLOW DOWN!!!!!". Oh well, what are you going to do?!?!? We have some last minute ends to tie up..and I know the day is going to be beautiful and perfect.

My bridal shower is this upcoming Saturday (August 16th) and I am so excited for that day!!! I don't think it has sunk in that its my BRIDAL shower...but I'm sure it will when I go to my closet and try to find something to wear, LOL!!!!

So I had a HORRIBLE dream last night....a wedding dream. The DJ didn't show up....we couldn't get a hold of my flower lady (her office phone just kept ringing and ringing) and the family friend doing our cakes said she ran out of flour. The lady who was going to do all of the girls makeup was sick...and my sister (who is doing the girls hair) forgot her hairdryer, curling iron, bobby pins...you name it. So then, I wanted to get away...and I stepped outside and it was pouring ran. And I looked up and who is seeing me in my dress before the wedding??? ROB!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH !@#*!@#^!@*!!!!!!

Let me tell you.....I have NEVER been more glad to wake up from a dream/nightmare than I was in the middle of the night last night! I sat straight up and Rob said "Are you ok" and I said..."mmmmm, yeah" and laid back down with my heart pounding!!!

Ok...so I'm job hunting, wedding planning, and life dealing. It's going to get better...but this is also life--and I'm going to live it.

New Year..Time to Buckle Down

....Time to buckle down on LOTS of things! Diets (seriously this year), Exercise (With my new Buff Brides DVD), and WEDDING PLANNING!!!!!! Our wedding is creeping up on me in just 9 short months! I remember when it was 14 months until the wedding, and everyone was saying "Oh wow, you have SOOOO much time". Hmmmm...where the hell did these last 5 months go, LOL. But, I do remember saying back to them: "Yes,it's still a ways away, but we have the holidays coming up, and before you know it, we will be in 2008."

Hmmm....well, we're here. January 1st, 2008. Wow. Time flies in life. Somehow I blinked and I am now 25, getting married in 9 months. It's amazing.

We are starting diets today. Serious diets. First thing to cut back on = Cokes. (Diet Cokes, Sprite, Regular Cokes, etc....) I have GOT to ween myself off of having so many a day. I would ideally like to never drink them again, but I'm not sure if that will happen, so I am going to take baby steps and see where I get. Today...I will start with 1 coke max a day. And MUCH more water. (YUCK) Everyone who knows me, KNOWS, how much I HATE water. Give me anything but water! LOL.

Time to pick back up with wedding planning as well!!! Yes, I have the big things done, but there are still small things! Rob and I will be doing the Save The Dates here in the next couple of weeks, so that is very exciting!

I hope everyone had a very Happy and Safe Holiday season, and I hope 2008 will be a wonderful year for everyone!