Frozen in Time

Today I caught myself sitting on the couch staring at the wall, deep within my thoughts. I somehow pictured myself...my life...my husband. And if/when Rob reads this he will probably take a big gulp and head for a glass of wine...BUT...I was thinking about our first child (YEARS down the road). I was thinking about how amazing it will be to go through the labor and delivery process with Rob by my side. That man, that handsome man will not only be MINE, my husband, but at that point- the father of our unborn child. I got chills, I even thought about Rob holding our child for the first time, and the look I imagine coming across his chiseled face. I smiled the most peaceful, encouraging smile. I cannot wait for that time!

There is a long way down the road before we are to that point in our lives, but I look forward to it.

I just wanted to document this time and this day for the future. Its just a fun future to look forward to.

Bridal Bliss....

This past Saturday was my Bridal Shower. This shower was hosted by my mother's co-workers. I have never, in my life, seen such a beautiful set up. From the pictures throughout the home, to the food, to the cake, to the napkins, to the tulle on the champagne glasses..it was flawless and incredible. They went above and beyond the norm, and I was completely taken back.



Some of my very best friends made it to the shower, including 2 girls I hadn't seen in years, along with one of my friends from Waxahachie!!!! That is some major dedication!!! I am so thankful.

The lady who is making my RB Pillow, FG Dresses and Baskets, as well as our Wedding Favors made my cake- and it was A-MAZ-ING!!!



I received so many gifts off of my registry from the friends who came, and some of those who could not make it, sent their gifts from afar. It was SO much fun, and a shower that I will treasure forever!





I have lots and lots of pictures up on facebook, should any of you want to see more....but I had the most wonderful day--and in less than 7 weeks....I will be Mrs. Spencer!!!! AHHH!!! Fun =)

Pathetic

This is ridiculous...IMHO, of course....

Oh this could get very bad...

So...there is this AMAZING shopping center that just opened up within walking distance to/from our home. Within this shopping center, you find an INCREDIBLE sushi lounge (Kotta) a nail salon with like 293040238423 Spa Pedicure Chairs, a hair salon, and an Italian Gelatto place similar to Paciugo. Oh, I failed to mention there is a pastry shop, and a GREAT Italian restaurant, as well as a Wine bar. Finesse.

Ok..so the other day, I am aimlessly staring at the shopping center as I turn into our neighborhood and low and behold something catches my eye(s).

Insert slamming on brakes here....and I whip a fast one into the parking lot. Is it what I saw??? Is this true???? Can it be??? What did I find??? A sign that reads:



Its true...a CUPCAKE store within walking distance to my house.




I wonder if they are publically traded?!?!?

Feel free to visit their site..... www.thecupcakery.com

Be still my beating heart....

Daisies and Rainbows..and the inbetween..

For the most part, this blog has been a way for me to share and document the events of our lives. And why I felt that only meant the good and "chocolate covered" events- I am not sure. It's not always a life of daisies and rainbows. There is rain and there are thorns.

I (and in return WE) have been going through some tough times lately. I was recently laid off of my job (yes..2 months before the wedding) and I have just felt a tremendous amount of guilt for the pressure that it has put on myself, but more importantly my precious soon-to-be hubby. He has worked so very hard in this life to get where he is, and I just don't understand why sometimes he chose me. I mess up so much and it brings us down. I am working on these things so very very hard. But sometimes I just wonder what in the world is appealing about me, for Rob to stick around.

A very close friend (and a member of the wedding party) told me the other day.."Amy, how can you be sure the boat will stand tough waters if you have only been in a pond". And he's right. I know that Rob and I are both in this for the long haul. He loves me and I love him. We have found each other, and desire no one but the other. What an incredible feeling. But I am still so very hard on myself...and struggle daily wondering "why he loves me". It seems like I am always screwing something up.

Anyway...I have been job searching like crazy...and hoping that the lights at the end of these tunnels are not trains. I had an interview last Friday, and really enjoyed the company...so we shall see what happens from there! Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers if you don't mind...as this is a very very trying time for us.

In the land of wedding planning--this darn wedding is coming WAY faster than I would prefer right now!!! Why is it when you are 286 days away from the wedding (yes..I have a countdown going on in the kitchen) it seems like I can't update the "new day" quick enough. And now...we are approximately 60 days/2 months/8 weeks from this wedding and I am screaming "SLOW DOWN!!!!!". Oh well, what are you going to do?!?!? We have some last minute ends to tie up..and I know the day is going to be beautiful and perfect.

My bridal shower is this upcoming Saturday (August 16th) and I am so excited for that day!!! I don't think it has sunk in that its my BRIDAL shower...but I'm sure it will when I go to my closet and try to find something to wear, LOL!!!!

So I had a HORRIBLE dream last night....a wedding dream. The DJ didn't show up....we couldn't get a hold of my flower lady (her office phone just kept ringing and ringing) and the family friend doing our cakes said she ran out of flour. The lady who was going to do all of the girls makeup was sick...and my sister (who is doing the girls hair) forgot her hairdryer, curling iron, bobby pins...you name it. So then, I wanted to get away...and I stepped outside and it was pouring ran. And I looked up and who is seeing me in my dress before the wedding??? ROB!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH !@#*!@#^!@*!!!!!!

Let me tell you.....I have NEVER been more glad to wake up from a dream/nightmare than I was in the middle of the night last night! I sat straight up and Rob said "Are you ok" and I said..."mmmmm, yeah" and laid back down with my heart pounding!!!

Ok...so I'm job hunting, wedding planning, and life dealing. It's going to get better...but this is also life--and I'm going to live it.